There are days when you feel quiet. Not low, but quiet. You feel the things around you absent even though when they are there. They seem to matter so less. These are the days you find alone for no reason. You tend to drift back to the old days of school when you were young and friends used to be there around you to look at you and say “Kya hua?”. The glimpse of a smile touches your face remembering how you had spent your childhood with those very people who once couldn’t speak properly but now are at different parts of the country trying to make their future.
Tonight I had a similar feeling. I was sitting alone on the roof top smoking a cigarette. I was staring at the moon which was only partly visible but still had enough light to light up the place around me filled with shallow mist indicating that winters are setting in. I was thinking about my school days. Every minute passed by seemed to bring back so many memories that I almost said aloud to myself “Oye, who dekh…..” . My cell buzzed. I was brought back from my state of trans to reality. It was one of those moments when you just don’t know how to react. I had received an SMS from my first girlfriend in school.
The SMS read “How you doin? Missin u vry much. :( ”. It is difficult for me to explain how it felt at the instant because only one thing I remember that I kept thinking about this that how she and I had been thinking of each other at almost the same time. It wasn’t sudden or unexpected for me as she used to send me messages every once in a while. But the message at that very moment with those words in them had a different effect.
After that I called her up. Had almost an hour long talk with her about the good old days. All was good. But the feeling I had in those very moments are something I will cherish for a long time.
