It was yesterday. I was talking to one of my school friends after a long time. It was but natural that we both got nostalgic and our talks drifted back to school. We were talking about school time sweethearts and who is still with whom. I asked her if she still liked me (cause she did and I had messed up my relation with her) and to that I got a sweet reply, “Yes”.
That night the conversation ended on a good note but a very sad memory lingered in my mind. It was the day I had broken up with her (flashback, 3 years back). I dint feel like calling her and breaking up. The reason being, I felt disgusted by her. I had seen her with another guy at the movies. I found a way much easier. I emailed her.
Dear #&@*$
I love you. I always did and I always will. You are a lovely person, a person who makes a hot summer day freezing cold, a person who makes me thirsty in the rainy season, a person who makes me weak in my knees every time she laughs, a person who lives eternally in my heart like the sun in the heart of the sky. But today, this world seemed to be a different place, it seemed I was living a fake life all this time. Today I saw you with another guy. I broke. My heart shattered like a crystal glass shot with a gun, my feelings poured out like water from a waterfall. All this time you were betraying me, but I was unaware of it. Love for you is a game I think, and you play it well. You kept me thinking that you are only mine, and I was a happy fool who believed this. All dreams were raised to dust today. My love, I have nothing much to say to you. I loved you with all my heart, I gave u my life, but it is obvious that it wasn’t enough for you. All the promises we made; why, why did you make them, when u knew that you couldn’t carry them. All said and done, I wish you are happy with what you have done. I will try to move on and forget you, but I know it is an impossible task. I will leave you now and will ask you to remember one thing," You love someone when you know the person so well that you can guess the time he will sneeze". Good bye.
Today, after 3 years of writing this, I feel so stupid. I was thinking that how at one point of time things which seem so intense and important, seem stupid and uncalled for some time later. May be a few years from now I will find this totally ridiculous. Life is a funny thing, makes us laugh at ourselves more than others.
